| | Subject: | Mrawr | | Time: | 08:14 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/happy.gif) cheerful |
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| Little has happened today. It's been a relatively boring day.
Woke up at around 9:40am and went out at 10am to get my hair cut. I asked the hairdresser about how much it would cost and what it would look like to dye my hair black. I now have permission to do so from my mother..yippee! I soon as I do I'll be sure to badger my brother to return the Digi Camera so I can show ya'll what I look like ^_~ I spent the rest of the day messing around online, playing Super Mario Sunshine (yeah, it's my phase of the month. I've never completed it before..the last level's too haaaard XD), playing with Moe and reading Mariel of Redwall. (Ugh, there's a long story about how I finally got this, the last book I needed to complete the Redwall series! First, I went to WHSmith ((Stationary, book and all-round handy store)) but they didn't have it, then Waterstones ((book store))..and they didn't have it. So I ordered it from Waterstones. Waited a week, they didn't get it in. So I went down to Kingswood ((A little shopping place in Bristol, not far from where I live))..and their WHSmith had it in stock!! Of course, since I'd already ordered it I had to leave. Another week later I went to check up and see if Waterstones had it in store...and apparantly it had gotten lost or stolen during the damn shipping!!
By this point I was completely and utterly certain that somebody, somewhere, didn't want me to get this book! Buuuut, I left it a fortnight, went in last saturday..and found that Waterstones had eventually got it in stock! Yaaaaayyyy!!!)
*cough* Yeh...Halloween. Claire loves it, but I'm not doing anything to celebrate it until midnight. I'll probably have a walk around the streets or something..for some reason the air on the night of halloween smells and feels amazing.
So far only one little girl has come trick or treating to my house XD Keep in mind it's about 8:34pm..there should have been much more..but they're scared of me no doubt.
I was chasing Moe about the house earlier. She's completely and utterly recovered from her operation. When she backs into a corner and looks up at you with wide open pupils you just know she's gunno sink her fangs into you and claw you to pieces.
Anyway, HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY!! | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Time: | 10:17 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/sad.gif) uncomfortable |
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| Bored..again. Completed a few quiz's cause I can:
You are a vampire.
What legend are you?. Take the Legendary Being Quiz by Paradox
You are a Silent Dreamer...
Some say your a freak, others say your very
blunt, but the truth is your just
misunderstood. You understand a lot more then
you let on, but that doesn't stop you from
letting them think what they want. Who cares?
Your you, that's all thats importaint.
What kind of Dreamer are you?
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Will edit with more | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Rage Against The Machine - Calm Like A Bomb | | Subject: | (In-Character) Indeed | | Time: | 05:42 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/surprised.gif) worried |
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| Again, Iam worried. The last few days have been confusing. I've wondered..what is trust? How does one earn it and what should be the hurdles set for another to gain ones own? In a way, I don't believe in trust, why should there be a time when trust is certain?
I suppose I cannot complain, Iam lucky with what I have. Why can't I just live a peaceful life, be allowed to hunt at my own free will, treat others as I see fit, do as I wish. Alas, nothing will ever be like this. I'm in a world where if I don't look out for myself nobody else will.
I despise writing in here..it makes me feel so emotional, even if these emotions are non-existent. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Rage Against The Machine - Wake Up | | Subject: | Matrix-y goodness.. | | Time: | 03:05 pm | | Current Mood: | content |
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| Watched Matrix Reloaded all the way through today..took a good chunk of my time but it was worth it. The fighting seemed to swallow the storyline, which was slightly annoying as I'm not one that enjoys that kind of endless action. Still, I lurve the Twins...they have the nicest hair...*grins* Ahem, yes, the fav. scene has to be the fight scene..ya know the one, Neo doing his thing in the room with the stairs and the weapons hanging on the walls? Ya know? X3
Ahem yes, the music is fabulous. I HAD to download some songs from the soundtrack..it's an unwritten law! The credit song at the end is by far the best. *cough* Yes..so that is my Matrix rant..if you haven't seen it you MUST! Although I have to say I believe the first one was better..
As usual I need to RP, I've got a drawing block after sketching my ass off yesterday during double art.
Mraawwrr!! Oh yeh, the lush TV is this room decided to die on me yesterday! Moody wide screen bitch! Luckily it's still under garuntee so we can get it fixed for free, although the repair dude can't get here until monday due to it being the weekend and all. So until then we have to use my brothers TV which was pulled down here, HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO BLAST OUT THE STORM ON THIS HUNK OF JUNK!? Meeh, 'tis because I had a good time yesterday morning I bet..stupid fucked up world. Well, at least the Cable still works. That stupid, greedy kitten is severely annoying me at the moment. I swear, her stomach is bottomless! Anybody wanna take her off my hands? I'll post her through the mail! You can have her for free, just please, take her!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I have had a head-ache for several days now. So many things are going on yet so few things are happening. I have three choices at the moment that will decide my future: Stay at the Moroth and except my fate, go along with Kallden and start a new life, or find my brother and return home. The fire of my attitude is dying..it has been so for quite a while now.
I was speaking with Arkiony only a few days ago and he was sure that one day I'd realise my mistakes in being as spiteful and moody as I am now. What does he know!? Nothing! ...Yet there's a worry in the back of my mind that my own death will be slow, painful and mental. It's the mental pain that hurts most and there's nothing I can do about it. I have nobody to turn to that will understand me, nobody to fall back on..
That is what makes me want to find my brother. Yet if I leave I won't have any of the excitement of this life I lead now. Sure, it's tough..but it's worth it..or is it? I've tried to leave countless times before, wether to another land or to my death, but I cannot go through with it. Something holds me back..I must find out what it is and destroy it..
If you are wondering about why I mentioned Kallden at the beginning I will explain. Recently Kallden has revealed that he is in love with me. At first I thought it a laughing matter, something to use as a weapon in order to crush him...but however much I try to hide it I know he is a..friend. I have been seriously considering leaving the Moroth and seeing what it is he has to offer me. Perhaps a new start..?
I would like nothing better than to crawl into a corner and weep at the moment. I haven't seen Seph for many days..maybe that's why I'm feeling empty? His presence proves a task, a challenge. With no excitement my life is boring. So then..perhaps leaving WOULD be a bad idea.
((Whew, that was very strange. Another thing that proves how close me and Acan are to eachother, I typed all of that from the top of my head without stopping once to think about it.)) | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Meh.. | | Time: | 01:20 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/angry.gif) enraged |
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| I'm always anxious about mondays...something bad ALWAYS happens on mondays..
It's a bit difficult to explain the whole reason why I'm anxious, probably very boring as well..I just am. Mostly because I know I'm going to suprise alot of people at school, get asked lots of questions by my class 'mates' and I guess alot of people are going to try and poke fun at me or be rude..I can guess that I'll be very nervous and pissed off at that time so I'm prepared to bite their heads off.
Got new school shoes yesterday..joy. Cost me £40, and incase you're wondering I'm size 6 1/2. These shoes have disgustingly high heels and I only bought them because they were the only shoes that were within my price range and that were there at the time. There were others that I liked but they were out of stock and if I were to order them I'd have to wait a week. Now I feel like I'm walking on stilts ¬_¬
I think I'm heading into a drawin' block seeing as I'm so nervous..heck, it's two days away and I'm already shivering in worry.
On my last note, I'm pissed at the world. I don't wanna really go into a rant about it but I read a certain articles in the newspaper yesterday..I really don't want to go into detail but there basically touched on animal cruelty and how threw a pregnant cocker spaniel from a bridge with a weight around her neck into a river and how some man bit a kittens head off at a childs birthday party. It made me sick to my stomach and realise even more how fucked up the world is. How humans, the destroyers of the world, torture animals, that don't need money, drugs, alcohol or the ability to murder eachother, to survive. It's just sick..I don't want to be a part of this.. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Evanescence - My Immortal | | Subject: | ... | | Time: | 12:11 pm | | Current Mood: | worried |
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| I'm a bit anxious and worried today..probably to do with school. I'm supposed to attend a meeting with some teachers, my councilor and my mother on Tuesday about school. It's not that I'm slipping behind or anything, I think it's about my whole mental-health front. I'm not mental, I'm not insane, but I get really depressed...REALLY depressed. It's getting better but it used to be terrible, I'd lock myself in my bedroom for hours and just sit there and think...I like thinking. It was during one of those times when Acan popped into my head, and since then I've never had a 'quiet period'. Anyways, I'm alot better now, roleplaying, chatting with online friends, drawing and writing has really made me feel good. I think they're pondering wether to move me to another tutor group or not, or maybe wether I'm doing well at that school at all and might need to switch. I don't care..I haven't got any real friends there anyway, they're all a bunch of deserters and preps that find it fun to piss me off.
Mep, anyway, like you wanted to hear about my real life *rolls eyes* I'm not doing anything at the moment, I'd quite like to RP...just gotta wait I s'pose. Nobodies at home at the moment, unless you count me, my many numerous pets and a television. Pondering wether to rent a DVD later or perhaps use Frontrow..dunno. Waiting for tomorow to get meh scanner ^o^ Yay! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | MUSE - Butterflies and Hurricanes | | Subject: | Feelin' blank | | Time: | 01:05 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/okay.gif) blank |
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| Yesterday was a pretty bad day today..heck, most days are bad for me. I went climbing during a trip with various 'friends' from school to an activity centre. They'd already booked it before asking me wether I wanted to go or not, so of course I had to. We were supposed to do climbing and then rifle shooting, both of which I dislike, and then finally a little archery (which I love, seeing as it's one of my most natural weapons you can get. Swords, axes and bows all interest me. Guns and machines however, don't) However, we only ended up doing 2 hours of climbing, seeing as how it takes half an hour to get there and back through busy traffic and dangerous roads.
Need I say anymore than 'It was terrible'? Everybody ended up thinking I'm terrified of heights, but I love heights! Stupid little asses..THAT's why I don't trust anybody. The rest of the day went pretty well, I was glad to get back home at 4pm and log straight onto the computer for a good chat with m'mateys.
But even then bad things HAD to happen. The evening was good up until about 9pm when I was putting some more touches up on Hals page (starting on the family section) and thus had to draw Acan. Drawing the membranes on her horns is EXTREMELY frustrating, trying to get the shape right and such..so I decided I'd give her a little makeover. Joe decided he wanted to greet me, and so I informed him of my decision. Then followed him trying to persuade me, Acans creator, that Acan doesn't have horns! That totally got me riled, he was telling me what MY character looks like! *shivers in rage* Aparantly he's been doing it to a few others as well...
That really got me depressed about my art skills, if I can't draw horns than I must be terrible x_x But, luckily, Rose and Angela were online at around that time and they both cheered me up a bundle ^_^ You two and Silver have all helped me out tons and I never really get the chance to repay you, hopefully when I get my new scanner on Sunday I can bombard the three of you with 20 sheets of fan art (Honostly, after looking through my three sketch-pads last night I found about 19 pics of Ainad, 8 of which contained her petpet Cirrus as well, 4 pics of Ainad and Koarai, 20 pics of Koarai, 3 of Naz, 1 of Morsa, 11 of Qualeo, 24 of Seph XD and also at least 2-3 pics of Dedo, Arkiony, Ophira, Tasmira, Krashall, Hiro and Khirit. x_x Guess who's been a busy girl? XDD) Two 200 leaf sketch pads consist of RP scene sketches ALONE! The others are random fan arts, pet page layouts, random scribbles, Hal and Acan posing as well as some pics for Neo friends (Kionno, Lune, Sorrow, Nicasto, Raevan, Lori, my Plucky, my Rikku, my Rip, my Soul, my old Spirit, my Feon, my Dak, Meteor, and loads more of my old pack buddies)....
I love to draw ^o^ Roll on sunday!!
Anyways, today has been rather uneventful. Writing this at school, being pestered by Myles, intend to slap and claw him soon, Humanities next..joy ¬_¬ Loggin' off. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| The past day was extremely eventful, and much to my liking. Whilst on my normal patrols of the Moroth, looking out for intruders and possible prey, I came across Ryu and his daughter Ainaril. I still have no idea what they were doing there, Ryu should remember the last time Ainaril came to the Moroth she was almost eaten. As expected, Seph appeared on the scene and got into a scuffle with Ryu. With little concern for my allies safety I made for Ainaril, who immediatly burried herself under a clump of bushes and into the dirt.
It's not like me to devour prey killed by others, but after the whole ordeal (which concluded with Seph killing Ain and Ryu in a total state of shock and sadness) I helped myself to the kill. I must say, she was delicious! Never have I tasted such tender, fresh meat. I don't usually go for the young ones, but Ain was a prize worthy of a King. Mayhaps I'll seek out Ryus future son or perhaps even his mate, Baiyoru? Although I do have a slight speck of respect for her, after tearing into her daughter and helping with her death I doubt she has the slightest shred of good-will towards me.
Anyway, Iam alone again within the Moroth, pondering the days events in my own chamber. Iam greatly pleased that I have finally had my revenge upon Ryu, a sensation of great satisfaction had swelled over me..I like it. Oh yes, revenge is sweet, although the price was painful, Seph is in a state after his scuffle with Ryu..I believe yet more revenge is in order.. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Evanescence - Going Under | | Subject: | Pain.. | | Time: | 08:47 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/sick.gif) sick |
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| Today has been hell following heaven. Yesterday was a good day, so obviously today has to be as bad as possible. The world is like that to me..which is why I hate it.
Why have I had a bad day? I've got the worse cold I've had for the past year. I have to take Calpol four times a day for the next week, which is disgusting, and it's really hard to sleep. I got a record 0 hours of sleep last night, or rather 0 minutes. I ended up having half-concious dreams, mostly about the film Blade which I watched before going to bed ^_^;;
In other news, I FINALLY get to RP today *waves a flag stating: 'Riy is my saviour'* Which is why Acans post will have to wait until the RP is over or until tomorow...
*signing off* | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Since Claire, my human companion, does not possess the energy and time to create multiple accounts for me and my sibling; Hal, I will have to share this account with her, along with the occasional visit from my brother.
Today has been a boring day, except for a rather disturbing encounter with Seph and Drac earlier it has been uneventful. Anyway, during a rather unsuccessful hunt this morning I came across a rather messily dressed human camping out in a field. It was a female, that was clear to see, but her body was covered with shining objects, rings and bangles. She appeared to be plastered in different coloured dyes and paints (makeup) although it only made her look more..wild. What caught my attention the most was a rather large horse, which I immediatly slaughtered. The woman didn't seem to put up much of a fight so I finished her off easily enough. Then I did something that I can't recall ever doing before..I looked through the womens possesions.
Apart from the few herbs and poltices stored away in her bag, she didn't seem to have any items worthy of my taking. But then I came across a small feathered object set into a container..perhaps some sort of dust. After much inspecting I decide to try out this new item to my own use and found it rather aggresive to the nostrils and eyes, but otherwise it created a slight, black darkening around my skin.
After experimenting with his strange device I have found it most useful in terrorising prey, when placed around the eyes it seems to give the illusion of gaping holes. I must remember this. However, I do also look rather attractive wearing it whilst in my anthro form. I learned this whilst prowling through the human country. I keep my muzzle, tail and wings covered so as not to attract unwanted attention and found myself the target of human males, around the age of 17 especially. Of course, I now possess their skulls as payment for my rented cavern within the Moroth.
Acan signing off, may you have a dreadful, hell-worthy day. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Yay, Claire has an LJ! *boogies* Thankyee Angie, Claire is forever in your debt..hopefully I can repay you soon ^_~
Ok, so, how has my day been? It started as one of the best days this year. My brother left for University, so I get an extra hour or two on the comp every day and don't have to put up with his snide, horrible remarks. I'm now a Moderator for the Clan RP Forums, which was EXTREMELY unexpected, but it's good to think that some people out there think I do a good job ^^ I was at the Clan Chat all day today, that HAS to be some kind of new record for me. It was extremely fun to just hang loose, chat and have some major fun with friends, Mew, Joe, Seph, Ozz, Squeaky, Chesh, Riy, Tiger and such. Claire loves ya'll ^_^
But then it all burst into flames. Riy and Rose seem to be at eachothers throats lately, and after hearing both sides of the argument I've tried speaking with both to 'chill' them out. Riy seems fine with trying to make things better but Rose doesn't wanna shift. She was kinda annoying me, but of course, I still love her. She was my first pal in the Clan and I'll always look out for her, but Riy is still a great friend as well and its hard to support both at the same time.
Anyways, that wraps up my first post in a neat little package. Hope you all enjoy the remainder of the day ^^ | | comments: Leave a comment |
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